This past year has been a very emotional time for me. I have changed in a way that I find hard to explain. I looked around my house today and noticed that I live in a house that is filled with shrines to the dead. I took a few moments and wondered why it is this way? What I realized is that I have a very firm belief in love.
I know that love is probably the one word that can be argued of its meaning by any and everyone. I wish I could simplify what it means to me. In an effort to do that I can say this.
I believe that in order for me to fulfill my purpose in life, I must find love in all things. Love for me is the essence of divinity. It is anchored in wisdom. Even though that may sound fluffy and airy it really isn't. When I learned the difference between how the way I relate to someone or something can change and I came to understand that changes have to be made sometimes in order to maintain love, my heart opened up and I felt a freedom like I had never felt before.
When you have lost someone that you love so deeply that you can not imagine going another day, another moment without them. it forces your heart to open up in a different way. I have experienced this type of loss and I can declare that the love does not die. Although you are forced to relate to that person in a different way. The way you relate may now just be lighting a candle or dedicating a few moments of your day to their memory.
For me that falls into and shows the ever changing waves of life and relationships. It is most important to keep the love and change the relationship if it demands to be changed.
Sometimes if I have been deeply hurt or violated by someone whom I share love with. I have learned that the violation served as a way to get my attention that there needs to be a shift in the way that I am relating to that person. It may require space. It may require less time spent. It may require a closer relationship and understanding of each other. It never ever requires to throw love away, not for me. It calls me to find where the love is and nurture that and be willing to make whatever change that must be made to maintain that love. Change is hard and scary sometimes. However it is far more scary to leave this earth without knowing that I loved hard and strong and true. It is imperative that my loved ones know without any doubt that I showed love and did my very best to make sure there are no doubts when I leave this earth that I walked in the spirit of love.
Now I am not ready to say what should be or should not be for anyone else. I can only speak to what is true for me and share that in hopes that someone who reads may find some light in a dark space.
Relationships change by nature
And love...
Love is love by nature
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